Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. - Lamentations 3:32
Friday, April 24, 2009
I Think I Can
A couple of weeks ago I took a quick trip to NWA with some friends. We went to a scrapbook store and I bought stuff for Evan's album. At the time I thought I would just buy the stuff and make the album when I was able to. I have thought about it a lot since then. The hour a day that I walk, I think about what I want to do for Evan's album. I have come to the conclusion that Evan does not have to have only one album and I don't have a time limit for scrapping his pictures. In 10 years if I want to get a picture of him out and scrap it I can. I have had several ideas and I think I am ready to start on one of his ablums. Why am I posting this here? Accountability. Part of me wants to just think about this and never actually do it, but I really think it would help me to do this. I can journal how I feel about him and tuck it in a scrapbook and have it out there, but not too out there. I can cry over each page as I remember how soft his shoulders were and the blonde hair that was on his shoulders and arms. I can remember the swirl of hair on the top of his head and know that I have these memories written down. Not that I think I will ever forget, but they will be in somthing tangible that I can touch and look back on. So I am going to get off the computer and do this.
Edited to add - Ok, I worked on an album for a little while. I am using Bible verses that have sustained me through this. I will pull it back out later, it was much harder than I thought it would be.