Sunday, March 29, 2009


I really wanted to pull the covers over my head and stay in bed. On the way to church I really thought about dropping Sean and the kids off and coming home. I was just not in the mood to go to church, which usually means that is where I need to be. When they sang one of the songs from Evan's funeral I wanted to run out of the church. But I stayed, and I heard a message that I really really needed to hear.


Ang said...

prayers, prayers, prayers

Not sure what to say, but I wish you strength

Barbara Williams said...

Thank you for sharing all your poignant feelings and thoughts. You are still being lifted up in prayer as I can imagine how hard life is at the moment for all of you. I am so happy we came to Ft. Smith even though it was under such circumstances, to let you know your family cares. Unfortunately, we have not been able to get together often due to time and space but it doesn't mean we don't care. If you all ever find yourselves without a place to go for the July 4th holiday we would love for you all to join us at Edisto Beach, SC as Mark, Karen and my families get together every year that week with Mom & Dad. G&G would love it there and we would love to have you. Take care and be strong. One day at a time.
Love, Barbie

Michelle said...

I thought about you throughout that entire song. I couldn't imagine how hard it was for you to hear it in the same place where his funeral was. I hope you know that it is OK for you to pull the covers over your head and stay in bed. You don't have to try to be strong for everyone else all the time. In those moments when you need to be weak, God will be your strength. Let him hold you while you grieve.