Wednesday, September 16, 2009

There is Another Baby Bum in the Oven


and to say we have been on an emotional roller coaster would be an understatement. We are above all happy. Evan has been in the front of our minds with this pregnancy to say the least though. While in our heads we know the chance of another baby with trisomy 13 is very low (our doc said it would be like lightning striking twice) it is still a very real fear. Anything going wrong is a very real fear. We have decided against amnio because frankly it would not make any difference. We would still chose the same path as before. The fact that we did not know Evan had trisomy 13 was very rare and we just do not feel like the risk is worth the information. Especially when it would make no difference. We know we gave Evan every chance at life and we would do that for any of our children.
With all that being said. We lost Evan 6 months ago today. So today is all about Evan. I am sure his little brother or sister will understand. Six months ago was by far the hardest day of my life. I miss you every day.

9 comments:

PurpleDogMommy said...

I just wanted to say a quiet "congratulations" to you. I've been following you for some time now...right after my pregnancy ended because of the same affliction that claimed your little boy. We are TTC as well, but nothing will ever "replace" our baby, just as this new little one won't replace yours. I'll be praying for you and your family...:)

chadandnikki said...

Congrats!!!!!!!!! That's awesome. I'm obviously praying for you and your husband. May God provide you with peace and comfort in the upcoming days. Much love.

Rebecca said...

I can only imagine the mixed joy & pain you must be feeling. You are honoring Evan as his mommy, even beyond the grave, by continuing to give him a place in your heart and family, as a big brother! Praying for a peaceful heart for you.

Congrats :>)

kel said...

I am so happy for you! Been following your blog for a while...praying for you and your little one...

Lexie said...

Hey Monica--I'm so very happy for you and your family. I know you must be thrilled and I'm thrilled for you. I still think of you daily. Good luck with the pregnancy. I'll continue to pray for a happy and healthy baby, mom and whole family. Many blessings...

Julie said...

Praying as always. Love you!

StephF said...

Praying for peace for you and that precious baby you are carrying! Love ya!

I'll See You in Heaven said...

Praying for peace that passes understanding. Bless you and your family.

thetalbotts said...

Congratulations, Monica. I pray that the Lord will give you a peace that passes understanding throughout this pregnancy. No new baby will ever replace Evan, but another baby is certainly a blessing worth celebrating. Happy half birthday to Evan. Though he's not here, he still gets to be a big brother. :)