Wednesday, June 10, 2009

April Rose

is not real. If you have no idea what I am talking about, just skip this post. I am going to post about Evan later, but I don't want this post to touch my precious son.
To say when I found out I was hurt would be an understatement. I was hurt and angry. One thing going through all this has taught me is to look past the anger and see what the big picture is. I am thankful there is not a baby about to be born and lost because of Trisomy 13. I, and several other mom's who have lost a child to any disease or accident, fight a daily battle to pull ourselves out of a pit of anger and pain. Part of that battle is to forgive the people who say the wrong thing, and this falls into that category. I don't know "b" but I do know that she needs prayer. It is not the prayer that I have been praying for her, but I do believe that God heard my prayer and the prayer of many others, and He knows what she needs. I will continue to pray for her. And to tell the truth this is quite hard. I feel like she took my pain and mocked it. She took my son and mocked what he went through. So I will also be praying that God will continue to help me forgive. I will pray that when I think of this, God will soften my heart to be able to pray past my pain for "B" to get the help she needs. Anyway, that is how I feel about that.

6 comments:

The Shaw's said...

I just found out about this last night. I can't believe it and it is so deeply maddening and sad that someone needs to go to these extremes. I can't imagine how you and others must feel. I am so sorry for the pain it is causing you. Love,rhonda

Just'N Angel said...

You stated exactly how I feel about this. I'm so sorry that you and others have to suffer again from her lies. Who could do something like that? She does need prayer. I am praying for you today.

thetalbotts said...

I'm right there with you. I cried myself to sleep the night that April was born & started declining, just re-living the moments of the night my sweet daughter went to heaven.

I wish this had all never happened, but it makes me feel better to know that you are having the exact same feelings I am. I need a little heart softening as well.

Rebecca said...

I was crushed.

To think that I shared my tears over Olivia with her & what she would have to go through.....

I am still numb just thinking about it.

Lexie said...

I know! isn't that terrible? I thought about you and the others who have lost a child to T13 or anything else for that matter. How awful!

Stacie said...

I was shocked to learn that this was all a lie as well, and I don't believe a word she says even now. She has done a horrible thing. I can't believe how this makes you and your family feel. My prayers are with you!