Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Faith

Before Sean and I were married we had decided on a girl baby name. Carolina, because he was born in North Carolina and he loves the name. And Faith because as he said, we have Grace, now we need Faith (For by Grace are you saved through Faith, It is a gift from God....). He also likes to say that he will, many times in his life say "Grace and Faith I need you!"
Anyway, when we found out we were finally pregnant we decided not to find out the sex of the baby. We both have felt from the start that it is a girl though. We actually call the baby Carolina and her. We still don't know the sex of the baby, but after another ultasound yesterday we know that this baby will probably have a long road ahead of her (or him).
We currently have the diagnosis of probable Hypoplastic left ventricle and probable overriding Aorta. This basically means that the left ventricle is too small and the aorta is placed wrong. The aorta will actually get blood from the right and left ventricle instead of just the left. This means it will get oxygenated and unoxygenated blood.
This means that instead of delivering my baby 3 miles from my home surrounded by family and friends, I will deliver in Little Rock(2 hours away) surrounded by a surgical team waiting to take my baby to her first surgery.
This is where Faith comes in.
I need faith right now.
Faith that God is all knowing and is in control
Faith that the doctors will take care of this baby and help us do what is best.
Faith that my family will get through this.
Faith that God has my baby safely in his protective arms.
Faith during the times that I fall apart and cannot function for fear of the unknown.
I need Faith.
We go to Little Rock for more tests on Dec 19. Please keep us in your prayers that day. My hope and prayer is that these test will come back normal. God can heal. Sean had a long talk with the baby last night and told her to work on growing that ventricle. She kicked him alot during this talk so maybe she was listening. Next Friday we will be undergoing test and finding out the results and making plans for the future. The future of our baby.
Please pray that God gives us Faith.

4 comments:

stephfreeman said...

Strength is not in never falling, but in rising again every time we do. Those moments you are overwhelmed and scared are going to come. Just remember that you are a strong woman and you will get thru this. My prayers will be with you. Love you!

Matt and Becca said...

Oh, Monica. This post hurts my heart and also gives me hope. I know you have faith, and this story of your precious baby's name is such a testimony to God's hand in her life already. I am praying and will continue to. Thank you for posting on my blog because that led me here. I'm sorry you guys are having to go through this. Please let us know if we can do anything for you.

Michelle said...

I am sorry to hear your story and that you will have to deal with the stress of the unknown for the next several months. The good thing that I keep thinking is that we are blessed to have the technology to be able to discover these things this early in your pregnancy. So your baby has a fighting chance once she is born. Your story about faith is inspiring and I will be praying for you and your family throughout this whole journey.

Julie said...

Monica, I have continually been praying for you since you told us about this situation. Big hugs. ps: i tried calling last week. You may not feel like talking on the phone, but I'm here if you need an ear to listen and I'm also here if you need a shoulder to cry on. I'm available for whatever. Just let me know. I'm happy to just come sit with you to. Whatever you need.