Today.

I posted this one year ago today. It is hard to imagine that Carolina was just a tiny little baby in my belly then. Now, she is a big baby. It is also 18 months since we said goodbye to Evan. I am having somewhat of a pity party today. Yesterday was not good either, but home group helped. We picked out and paid for Evan's stone 3 or 4 weeks after he passed away, and it has still not been placed. We have just gone round and round with the monument company. I went out there yesterday to put the fall flowers on his grave and I really expected to see the stone. I thought we had everything worked out and it would be placed. It was not there. I was devastated. Every time I have to call it just throws me in a depression. This is the last detail that needs to be taken care of and I just cannot get it done. I understand we picked a stone that takes a long time to come in, I understand that we asked for a revision on the design, I understand that the person we were communicating with quit and no one was reading her email anymore. I just want it placed please. I just need this done please. It is painful.