Tuesday, August 10, 2010

17 Months


I miss Evan. I have been having a hard time lately. I really don't know what has triggered it. Evan would have been 17 months today, and I can't even imagine what our lives would be like if he was here. It really upsets me. When I hold Carolina or nurse her or watch her do something new (which seems to be daily) I think about how we never got that with Evan. I see Carolina in this picture. I don't know what it is about it, but I see her. I am just going to start rambling, so I probably need to stop. I just miss Evan. Maybe just writing it out will help.

5 comments:

chadandnikki said...

Prayers and hugs.

thetalbotts said...

You talk about that precious baby boy as much as you want. Even if you think you're rambling. We want to listen. Praying for you, Monica.

Julie said...

I love you, sweet friend. I'm praying. Call me if you need to talk. I will always be here for you.

Lexie said...

there's a reason your missing him....he's a part of your family that isn't physically with you, but will ALWAYS be with you in spirit. Thinking of you thinking of him.

christina said...

you are the 10th, we are the 8/9th of each month. Cana's 22 month. A fam sat behind me at mass this past sunday and she looked about that age..babbling..mom trying to shush her. I just reveled in the noise of a toddler girl..and wondered what life would look like for us now too. I'm with you all the way.