It Will Not Be Unredeemed

I will just go ahead and ask you to forgive me now, this is going to be one of those rambling posts. My head is all over the place right now. I was basically pregnant for 2 years, so my body is just done. I decided to start slow and just walk again. After Evan, walking was my therapy. I would put my ipod in and just walk and talk to God while listening to praise and worship songs. I would also cry a lot while walking and I was probably that crazy lady who cried on the walking track! I figured so much out on these walks and talks with God.
Anyway. The other day when I turned into the parking lot of the park, I started crying. I just did not even think it would be emotional. I had been to the park several times, just not to walk. I held it together somewhat. I just kept looking at Carolina asleep in her stroller while I was walking and listening to a lot of the same songs on my ipod and just was overcome by so many emotions. Then the song Unredeemed by Selah came on and I lost it. I was that crazy crying lady walking the track again. It makes me uncomfortable when people look at Carolina and say God is good and faithful. God is good and faithful, but I think He was good and faithful through everything we went through with Evan, when we needed Him the most. I feel comfortable with redeemed. When I was crying I cannot describe the emotions overwhelming me.
They were tears of hope
They were tears of sorrow
They were tears of Joy
They were the tears of someone redeemed.


The cruelest world
The coldest heart
The deepest wound
The endless dark
The lonely ache
The burning tears
The bitter nights
The wasted years

Life breaks and falls apart
But we know these are
Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed

For every choice that led to shame
And all the love that never came
For every vow that someone broke
And every lie that gave up hope
We live in the shadow of the fall
But the cross says these are all
Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed

Places where grace is soon to be so amazing
It may be unfulfilled
It may be unrestored
But you never know the miracle the Father has in store
Just watch and see
It will not be
Just watch and see
It will not be unredeemed